what's going on raya day :'))

Hai2...lamenyer ase xupdate blog nih (buzy lerr..:))
tup tap tup tap...dah sebulan puasa en..(xpenohh pon) ahhahaha...
raye taon nih aq x balik ler, sbb adik aku pon kat sni xdpt aku mne2 pon hurrmmm..
nway aku tetap nak ucap SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
N pertama kalinya jugak aku beraya tnpa family, agak sedih la(bajet je haha)..agak sayu laa...(ntah2 dorg xingat aku waaaa...)
tapi aku xlpa ucap selamat hari raya ngn abah n mama...waaa sedihnyer mama en..

and raye taon ni aku ngn ddmax...

time kaseh kat dye sbb jemput aku raye same kat kpg dye..

hapy gak sbb dpt tolong2 kat dapur en lau x kat uma sndri mne ade nk 

pijak dapur..(hahha aku bajet rajin la)

raye ni aku bwak adik aku gak ngn laki dia..

n makseh bebanyak sbb dye jemput skali adik aku raye same..

wlaupun dsitu trdpat sdkit konflik tapi ape aku bley buat

aku sntiasa di tgh2...

dye xsuka dgn cara adik aku ape aku ley buat akn aku

nk pksa org trime en.

mgkin tu kelemahan yg ada kat adik aku...(but plis jgn sntiasa

tgk kesilapan org sbb kdg2 tiap org trselit kebaikan)

to ddmax,

sory sesngt kalu u xdpt trime cara adik i, mgkin tu sbb cara dye

pangai dye n kite xdpt nk ubah sikap org tu dlm sekelip mata

klau salah kite tunjuk ajar n be profesional sbb kite matang dari dye..(i lom

matang lagi ..ok fine)

dlm hal ni, aq dpt blaja smthg kite kne blaja memaafkan org tu sblum kite nk  org maafkan kite....

and aku pening dgn hbgan adik aku ngn laki dia..(..plisla..)

btol ckp mama klau laki tu sorg yg bertggungjwb dia akn

sedaya uapay ntok kawin but ni aku tgk adik aku

yg berusaha ntok sume nih...

(adakah aku ni xlayak ntok berkata2 lagi...)

ni sume yg aku pk n ape yg aku rase..aku kene jujjur ngn dri aku.

aku mmg xdpt trime laki tu!!!

yes!!! aku hipokrit..(tpi aku x kejam...:(( )

aku sntiasa berdoa semoga ape yg berlaku ni ada hikmah di sebaliknya 

begitu gak ntok hidup aku skrg ni...

mgkin aku xdpt bfkir skrg, mgkin org  disekeliling ingat aku

mudah djatuhkan tapi slh!! ( aku fatiha marzuki oke~)

bila aku diam tnpa berkata2 mksudnyer aku nga berfikir..

so jgn nak men"tension" kan lagi paler aku keyh!
exam aku nk dekat so aku xpeduli pape lagi..(plisla...)
bila buat aku kebuntuan..bila buat aku kerunsingan n xsng ati...aku bole buat sesuatu decision tnpa brfikir pnjang!!!
(kan aq dah marah nih...huuuuh...penat mara)

aku rase au dah  bnyk berubah...yah! mmg aku dh berubah ...so jgn tnye kenapa!??
sbb sume kerana KEADAAN.... (aku ke ni...hrmmm)

p/s : aku tetap aku....kdg2 kite trpksa pentingkan diri klau itu ntok kebaikan kite....bye~

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today story~

harr!! nmpak x picture ni.....
agak2 sape ni yer?? 
hahhahhaha....
 ni la patient mental aku nama dia "shu jin"
umo 20 taon...
cian kan mude2 lagi kne hbiskan riwayat idop d ospital sakit jiwa.
bile tnye knpe msuk hospital dia pun xtwu..
dye ckp "mcm dlm mimpi"...aku ????
xpela,kte xley nk pkse dye ckp sbb dye akn  ckp sndri klau dye nak kan...


hari ni aktiviti aku kat hospital mental for 1st day d OT(occupational theraphy)..
aku conduct dorg bersenam..poco2..hahhaha caye x caye aku pasang lagu 'CLUBBING" n goyang sume yg tua2 ikot...aku  tahan je ketawa..
hahahhaha nmpak mcm jaat kan aku??hahha xdela jahat mne pon..
at least dorg xboring an...
lgpun xde plan nk buat xtiviti ape so aku yg trpksa conduct sume hurmm..but hapy la.!
 n at 2pm start grooming..hahahah ape lagi aku mekap2 patient aku dari muda smpai yg tua...
yg jhtnyer cliff dye hantam je mekap org laki jugak hahhaa..mne x aku gelak jeeeee...
ada yg potong kuku...ade yg gunting misai hahaha mcm2 lagi la..
best x terkata...fuuhhh memenatkan..
but nway aku eppy!!
yeahh!!

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what the DAY..:'((

WHAT THE DAY...:'((


14.8.2011......

The things happen on ur birthday..

i never tot it will be happen and im not sure is that are misunderstanding between us...

we never quirrel till like this 'n ' yah.! sure

its the bad day happen also on my test day..

i dont wanna talk bout dat ...just enaf~

now we are seperate 4 a while for us...

we need a space and time..

n let the time decide what to be...

For  whole mylife will never 4get of that time n u was crying like a crazy..n im feeling dying inside~

i never blame u but im blaming on myself..it was my wrong...maybe :'(((

n nvr 4get of the word u say it out, u throw throw the "RING"

n i tot dat time it was a last day 4 us to meet n we break up....

never thought it doesnt dreaming but it was true!

u end all this..

n what i do dat time~

im nothing to said...crying inside~

alone...

blaming myself...

missing u...

lonely...

but im trying to smile to confront all this......

GOD give me a strength...

 i said this..

" if u are really not mine i accept all this...but i never let u go with that easy bcoz 

i have been survive for as long as all this with you but why should give up for today happen...my love for u will never the end when my heart will never "STOP"  for u"

IM STILL LOVING YOU...U R MINE~

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